So, I turned 30 a week ago! It still is very bizarre to think that I am 30. More weird to say, "I'm 30". I used to think 30 was so old! And here I am...
As with all birthdays, I started thinking about the upcoming year and what it might hold. Not only is this year a big milestone, but the most life changing event will take place...motherhood. This no doubt frightens me beyond words. I started reading a book on the first year & what to do if this or that happens & began to feel utterly overwhelmed & unprepared for this. For those who know me, I am a planner. I like to know all the possibilities of what can happen in a situation & feel comfort in knowing that I have an answer or solution. But with a child I know there will be so many unexpected & fly-by-the-seat-of-my-pants moments that I cringe just thinking about it. It will no doubt be good for me in many ways. It will bring some spontaneity into my life & it will force me to trust God more than I can imagine. And so, let the journey begin...
I'm sure a year or two yrs from now I will look back & think 30 sounds young. :)
2 comments:
Happy Birthday!
You will do great as a mother! There are some great books to help you prepare, but you're right most of it is just really trusting God and the instincts he gave you. You really will know your child better then any expert out there.
I have told this to many moms now, but it's worth repeating and that is that pregnancy, birthing and motherhood have been to me the ultimate acts of surrender to the Lord. I have so much to learn about it!
Happy Birthday, a few weeks late! I clicked to your blog from Molly's blog (liberia or bust!) I've been blogging myself for a while now. OK if I link to yours from mine?
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